Our Alaskan Adventure...

Nope. 

Not that kind of adventure.  We're currently too poor for that.

This is our new adventure.

Photo Credit Dog Orphan Photographer.

Meet Alaska.

She's the reason we can no longer have nice things.

She's 4 years old and a rescue from South Carolina, by way of Georgia and then the humane society about 90 minutes from here. It was a long journey.  She was at the shelter here for about 7 months, was adopted, and then brought back in, where she sat in a concrete kennel, until we came along.  Now she has a 300 square foot outdoor kennel to run off leash...

In which she'll do a few circles and then sit at the window, wondering why she's not with her people. In fact, she doesn't really want to be without her people, like ever.  So we go on a lot of car rides...

I've finally found a restraint system that she doesn't want to get through, so now she, and all her fur, can stay in the back safely while we head to Petsmart, PetCo, the wooded trails, wrestling practice, Grammie's, and waterfront.  Apparently the beach, before a storm, is where she finds her zen...

She can't help herself when we find a freshwater spring.  She stops for a drink before submerging herself for a cold bath...

As with any Husky, you have to run off all that energy, out so we go out a lot. It's also a good idea to have a crate while you're out so they don't hurt themselves and destroy things you didn't even know you still had. Our crate lasted about 4 days. She'll go in to lay down every now and then, but then gets distracted by a bug of sorts and is out and ready to play.

She appears to be completely house broken.  She loves people.  Other dogs, not so much.  While we've made baby steps in progress (they can get close enough to sniff now) she gets nippy if they move too quickly.  The weird part is it's only some dogs, others she could care less about.

She has never liked toys, and has no idea what fetch is.  Being a dog who can never be off leash, it's not a good idea to teach her either.  She has found two toys that occupy her time. One is a rope with a ball at the end.  She plays with it by herself mostly, hitting herself in the head.  The other is a Kong activity toy that gives her treats. She basically trashes it until she gets the salmon treats out, then leaves the rest for the ants.

She was treated for heartworm, a prevalent condition for strays down south, and will be getting her nails done tomorrow as they have gotten quite long. She struggles with the hardwood floors. The shelter she's been in is fantastic, but they can only do so much.  She has dark red fur and hard callus on her elbows from sleeping on the concrete for so long. We're working on softening hem up...

She doesn't bark.  Except last night when Oldest came home.  I said "Is that Oldest out there?" And she barked once.  Otherwise nothing. Ever. Unless another dog's coming at her barking, then it's 2 warning barks on her hind legs.

She loves Netflix-ing with Youngest, and begging for food that she can not eat.  She'll apparently do some really sketchy stuff for a Klondike bar...

 She's got one little strip of white in the lower part of her iris.  Otherwise she has completely brown eyes.  I got a DNA test kit for her mainly out of curiosity, but also so we'd know if there were any unexpected health issues we might need to watch for as she gets older. We should get the results in about 3 weeks.

But mostly, she's just happy to be in a house, with plenty of belly rubs and feet to sleep on...

If You Build It...

I am a caretaker. 

I know it. 

The world knows it. 

I am everyone's Mamma.

I think my breaking point was one ridiculously hot day in the beginning of August when I "mamma-ed" a new co-worker cautioning him on the hazards of riding in the back of the mail truck that day, and then followed it up with "Because I'm everyone's Mamma... and we need you alive to deliver packages at Christmas".

At that moment, I realized it was time.

Mr. Chewey Cat has been gone now for about a year and a half.  In the beginning the thought of another pet was unbearable, and to be honest, not having to worry about him all the time anymore was freeing.  His renal failure came on quick, his behavior became erratic and we were pretty sure he'd had multiple strokes.  But, time has past... 18 months worth... and it's apparent something's missing here.  And with the boys becoming more and more independent, I'm clearly subconsciously seeking something to take care of.

So I caved.

We're getting a dog.

I debated getting an Alaskan Klee Kai from a breeder.  I joined the National rescue, since I wasn't looking for a puppy anyway.  Turns out even the rescue only gets about 5 per year, and the waitlist is years long.  With my history volunteering at the Humane Society, I knew a puppy from a breeder was just not for me. 

So I turned to Petfinder, which has proven to be more than frustrating.  It is rarely updated so most often you are inquiring on dogs that have already found homes.  Plus you need to be pre-approved by each center, so odds are the dog you're looking for is at a different one that where you've been approved, and you have to apply all over again, and by then, that dog is gone. *sigh*

Then I found a BEAUTIFUL dog, Tristan, on the Ft. Benning Shelter's Facebook site.  We were all set to go with him until I realized it was going to cost $1,500-$2K to get him here from Georgia, sight unseen.  I tried every available option I could think of, including driving 20 hours down and 20 hours back over 3 days to get him. In the end, I just kept thinking, If we are the right family for him, it wouldn't be this hard. So I made the hard choice to let him go.  His perfect family is out there, just not with us.

In the meantime we started getting the house ready.  We put up a zip line run for easy escape into the backyard. We bought bowls, a leash, and lots and lots of poop bags. Knowing we wanted a Husky, we knew we would need a fenced area to play off leash since they tend to run, and the 3 foot chain link we currently had was just not going to work.  If you've been around a while you know we've slowly been replacing the fence with custom pressure treated along the driveway and the back, but I knew there was no way we could afford to keep going at 6-8 feet high throughout the rest of the yard.  So we compromised.  I finished the driveway side with the pressure treated, and we did the kennel area with 6 foot stockade that was on clearance at the Depot...

Of course, we had to have a doggie window.  I did a ton of research and ultimately came up with this. It's stair balusters sold open stock at the Depot.  Way less money than a custom panel and I could make it any size.  The process has been painfully slow but we were getting there...

The wonky decline in the fence on the left has been fixed since this picture, I assure you.  Funny, I look at this picture and think, was I drinking??? But, no... I was just tired. Anyhoo...

We just kept going on the Field Of Dreams premise that if we built it they would come...

In the midst of all the building, our dishwasher died. This past Friday, the husband was installing a new one, going up and down stairs for this tool and that, cutting the breaker, etc.  Frustrated that he could not find the teflon tape, he decided to look one more time in an odd section of the basement in an old red tool box. 

That's when he saw him.

An orange and black cat.  Crouched in the corner.  Just looking at him.

What. The. ???

The husband insisted he did not leave the door open.  The last day the door had been left open unsupervised was Monday when I fixed the wonkiness in the fence, four days earlier.

Four Days People!

Yet here's this cat.  Just hanging out in our basement.

We have no idea how long it's been there or how it got in. But when the husband opened the basement door, he bolted.  Ironically the neighborhood cat, Lyra, has been coming around the last few days crying a lot, which she hasn't done since Chewey left us.  Maybe she was trying to tell us something like...

we built it... and he came.

Just not the he we expected.

***Note:*** We are not keeping the stray cat.  He's off happily causing chaos elsewhere.  For now we have finished the kennel as much as we can, ordered a crate, and are crossing our fingers all goes well at our second meet and greet with a certain 4 year old girl...

The Moment I Rethought My Life Choices, This Week...

The last two days in the mail truck have been, well, less than fun.  

I have a loaner from the plant, as mine was taken for routine maintenance, which basically means they might put washer fluid in it and will promptly return my mail truck complete with it's current exhaust leak and bald tires in tact. 

And as you would expect, the loaner is FILTHY, but after several lysol wipe downs and a quick trash run, I was off to run the route.  Making my way to the first box, I notice several spiders have hitched a ride to nowhere along side me. Yes, I killed the ones near me, I am after all, allergic to most bites. I left the light brown one on the ceiling though, as he was over the tray side, not bothering me, and honestly I could not reach him.  Anyhoo...

Driving along and I start to smell something.  *sniff, sniff*  It's melting plastic. The heavy, thick, headache worthy, pungent smell of burning plastic.  Yet, I see no smoke, so I carry on, realizing only later that it was the dashboard getting so hot it was starting to get soft. I debated etching some memorable quotes into it, but refrained.  

I arrive at my first group of mailboxes that I have to get out to deliver for, a campground with a small petting zoo.   I save my morning banana peel for the goats as it is a favorite of theirs. It was so hot that all but one wouldn't come out of their house, and the one that was lounging on the picnic table four feet from me wouldn't even get up to meet me at the fence. 

Lazy bastard.

Wait.  

I take it back. 

I would also be totally laying on the picnic table doing nothing if I could.

But I can't.  There's mail to deliver and only one crazy me to do it.  

So I drive on... bill, bill, grocery flyer, package... box to box... until...

The three day old road kill. 

I hold my breath upon the approach, but the bread line of traffic to reenter the road forces me to inhale at an inopportune time.  Which is when I noticed it.  No smell.  None.  No flies either. I think the sun has actually cooked the raccoon's insides. So gross.  And yet, scientific.  

Moving on...

My brand new scanner overheats.  The buttons no longer work.  Which means I can no longer accurately pinpoint where everyone's package lands on their property, or get signatures when required.  Unfortunately, management can still track my whereabouts with it, so I carry on...

...and that's when it happens.  

That spider that wasn't bothering me before?  

Falls from the ceiling of the truck into my mail.

Dead.

As a doornail.

Right there.

One minute doing his spider-y business, swinging from his web, then.... plop!

Spiders survive nuclear war, floods, fire. And yet, the heat of the mail truck did him in.

And I still had three hours to go.

Lord help me.  

13 years and 2 months until retirement...

How's The Weather? Now With Pictures!

The August heat here has been unbearable.

The mail truck is like an E-Z Bake oven, powered by the sun, and after 4-5 hours, I am cooked beyond perfection.  By week two it felt more like a portable crematorium.  I swear one of these days they will open the door and find nothing but a pile of ashes in the driver's seat. Needless to say, it sucks the life out of me, and when I get home there's not much energy for anything other than a shower.  Truthfully, it's not even the heat really, but the humidity. And with dew points in the high 70's, it's, as the weathermen say, air you can wear.

The past few days though, we caught a bit of a break in the humidity, and things started coming together in a more normal fashion.  Thursday I got home early and with both boys working, the husband and I had not much to do but go for ice cream.

On the way home he decided to "swing by" to see a friend of ours who was photographing a sunset at at the beach.  Now if we lived in a landlocked state, the beach, would be easy to find.  But no, we live near 559.6 miles of beaches, according to Google.  So finding said friend on the "beach" could be difficult.  If only we had some sort of hand held device that could let him know we were coming, or even where he was.  But no, husband just had to go old school. So we drove for about 25 minutes until we came to a cross street and just like in the movies, there he was, zipping by us on his way to the beach. 

The look on his face was priceless as we finally caught up with him in the parking lot.  The beach was all but empty.  Just a few stragglers from the day.  Clearly someone had spent some extensive time here today though...

I love the shell "stonework" and the feather barricade.  It feels as though the castle might be impenetrable.

The sun was ridiculously bright, but eventually started to go down...

There are still a ton of boats in the water.  I suspect with the heat wave no one will pull them out until well after Labor day this year. From the foot prints in the sand, I suspect this beach has a well used volleyball net as well...

And because I'm a dork, I had to see if I could get the sun in the hole in the post.

Turns out I could.  And now I'm just a teeny bit blind...

The sun kept going... and going....

I was so quiet. 

And buggy.

I bailed out shortly before dark, as I am tasty, and the bugs had officially claimed me as their own.   The moon was equally as beautiful last night, with Mars in clear view down to it's right.  I have no pictures of that though since at the time I wasn't sure if it was Mars or just residual retinal burn from the post picture.  It was Mars.

Living in New England we complain about the weather.  It's in our dna, like not pronouncing the letter r, and including Dunkin Donuts as a food group. 

But last night there was not much to complain about.

Except maybe the bug bites.

Wordless...

My Great Aunt is 91. She lives in a convent and is in failing health.  Everyday when the phone rings at an unusual time, I get a twinge in my belly that it is my mother with the news that she has past. 

And yet, that call has not come.

But the phone has rung.

To tell me that a friend of ours has had a massive heart attack while on his way to work.  He has four kids under 13.  No wild sorted history of shenanigans that would affect his health.  No indicator that there was an issue.  He was just going to work.  At forty three years old, he dropped on the T.  He is for all intents, okay.  He woke up a few days laster and even remembers the paramedics using the paddles on him.  He was lucky.  As is his wife, three daughters and baby boy.

And yet, the phone rang again.

This time the news was not lucky.  My friend, my co-worker, lost her husband today. While he had a history of heart issues, I don't think anyone saw it coming.  Course, does anyone in their early fifties?

She and I, while in different circles, went to High School together and knew all the same people.  Reconnecting in our late 20's at work was like old home day.  I was fresh off my divorce, struggling to raise the boys on my own, she was pregnant with her third child, in a relationship that was hit or miss at best. 

Through the years our friendship has cycled through.  We've done girls weekend in Nantucket, and many dinners out. We've taken time off when we were in different places. Last month we went for ice cream and reflected on the old days which now, seems like a lifetime ago, and laughed about how since our husband's are at that age (in their early-mid 50's) it's no longer selective hearing, but actual not hearing us entirely, and we end up in the grocery store yelling about buying double stuff or regular Oreos.

She has had a rough go over the years, some just a series of bad breaks, and others of her own doing.  But when she met her husband eight or so years ago, he seemed to give her balance.  They had the same sense of adventure and bit of a wild side, but he was down to earth and kept her grounded.  He was good for her kids, and a solid foundation for her. At the end of the day they counterbalanced each other really well, like peanut butter and jelly, or Mac-n-Cheese.

It took them what seemed like forever to get married.  Their engagement was only 2 months long.  The week before their wedding he had a massive heart attack, and yet they were not deterred.  He was released from the hospital, married in the living room, and he went back to bed.

Their 1st anniversary would be Sunday. I remember this because it is also my anniversary. And I find myself deeply saddened, and for the first time in a very long time, not finding any words.

And that's the thing, right?  Because in times like these the right, or the wrong, words are what you need.

I remember years ago, I was sitting at my desk, tying up little baggies of Hershey kisses with curly red ribbon.  They were Valentines, for the boy's preschool. I was trying to get them done so they'd be done for the next day's festivities.  This was common for me to go big when they were little, partly because it was a rare moment to utilize my creative brain, and partly because I was desperately trying to overcompensate for not being the mother I thought I should be.  So there I sat, curling the red sparkly wire ribbon with confetti hearts around a pencil to get just the right curl while my friend finished setting up her mail for the next day. We talked about the kids, her recent separation with the father of her youngest daughter (see above not so-great- relationship), single motherhood, and just stuff in general.  She watched me filling the bags, tying and twirling each one, and when I was done said "You are the mother I always wanted to be."  

Now, I have no idea if she remembers that day, or if she even meant what she said.  But in that moment, those were the words I needed to hear more than any other words in the world. It's been 12 or 13 years and those nine simple words have stuck with me more than any other conversation we have ever had.

Nine. Simple. Words.

And now, when she's going through one of the most difficult times in her entire life. 

I have none.

Sailing Ships...

Him: "I just want to hang on to whatever time left we have to do things as a family"

Me: "I think that ship may have sailed honey."

Him: "No.  No it hasn't.  I refuse... you're coming with us."

Me: "So even if I'm not on the ship, but the rope is wrapped around my ankle, and you're dragging me behind it?"

Him: "Yup.  You're coming with us."

A year.  It's been a year since my last post.  When I left you last, Youngest was a Freshman, navigating the halls of High School, Oldest a Sophomore wrestling with first love, Bonus Boy, the step son, was struggling against the tide of adulthood. It seems like a lifetime ago.

Sunday is our 7th wedding anniversary, and remarkably, neither one of us is itchy in the slightest.  We are still in love most days, but more importantly, genuinely still liking each other.  And while it's been only 7 years, the last 15 years we've enjoyed each other's company is something in itself to be content with.  Our relationship has changed considerably since the boys were 1, 2, and 8 ish.  The everyday all consuming tasks of parenthood have been replaced by independence and self sufficiency.  This of course means that while we've done a relatively good job in raising decent human beings, it leaves us with gaping holes in the fabric of our everyday, that honestly I am having a tough time mending.

BBoy is full time at the grocery store where he works.  Last year, we took him to the dealership and he bought, off the lot, his first car. Shortly after that he got promoted to supervisor, and about 2 months ago he moved out of his mother's into an apartment with friends, about 20 minutes from here. While slow, it seems that once the ball of adulthood started to roll, it caught some momentum. He'll be 24 on Saturday and he finally seems happy.  Now if we could just get him to cut that hair of his and maybe get a shave....

Oldest and I have been touring colleges as he starts his Senior year in eight days. While he will likely apply via the common ap to 6 colleges just to increase his options, he has narrowed it down to his top two, Worcester Poly Tech and Wentworth. He is planning a major in Mechanical or Civil Engineering, with a minor in college girls and off campus parties, because that is how he gets a rise out of me. He forgets as he throws out these off-handed, instigating comments about prospective college life, his instinctual decisions have more to do with academics and structure, so in my heart I know he'll be fine.

He earned his varsity letter for Track in javelin last year and continues to make the honor roll.  He has had his heart broken several times in the last year, mostly by girls that were not right for him, and once by one who was. The road of relationships is long and winding with many potholes and avalanches along the way, unfortunately you have to get hit by a lot of rocks before you learn to look up, duck, cover, and sometimes get off the road all together.   He's working two jobs this summer, and he's struggling to balance time with friends, the jobs, summer school work, and his own interests. I rarely see him to be honest, and when I do it's to ask if I'm cooking dinner.

And in roughly 80 days he will no longer be a child.  My first baby will be 18.

Youngest, on the other hand is 16, and oh what a full year he has had.  He won a $500 scholarship as runner up for the National Boys and Girls Club Youth Of The Year.  He got his permit and is slowly, ever so slowly, learning to drive.  He has a girlfriend, at least I think that's where this friendship is going, because he doesn't say much and what he does say is an incoherent mumble.  He earned his second year on the Varsity wrestling team last year, and continues to wrestle for a private club.  He works out 3 hours a day and recently completed 2 of the three races in a Spartan Trifecta.  If you're not familiar, a Spartan race is an extreemly hard core mud/obstacle race varying in lengths of 3-13 miles long.  It's insane and he loves every second of them.

He finished his Eagle Project and is now an Eagle Scout.  His Scout friends are following suit and I suspect that he'll stick with it until his friends are also done or until he ages out.  He and I are starting to tour colleges next week.  His career choices have ranged from Plumber to Armed Forces, and from Engineer  to Sports Science.  Also under consideration is the ever popular, but less profitable Hobo Studies, also known as riding the rails and eating tuna from a can. Most likely he'll fall somewhere in the middle, working his way through a local, affordable college as a plumber's apprentice, and then getting a job working for Spartan designing obstacles for insane races world wide, thus seeing the world, but being able to afford the good tuna from a pouch rather than a rusty can.  In the meantime, he is also working two jobs over the summer, trudging through school summer work, balancing friends, wrestling, finishing driver's education, and random scout outings.

Which brings me back full circle to the ship sailing on family fun.  The husband bought these concert tickets months ago.  Months before coordinating 4 jobs of the two in house boys and the full time wacky retail schedule of the one who doesn't live here. Months before we both had a new Postmaster, new supervisors, and new rules of taking time off. Months before we all had these enormous things on our plates and we forgot all about said tickets.

But there there were.  Real tickets, not even eTickets, sitting right there on the table. Which lead me to booking a hotel, the boys coordinating their schedules, and rearranging appointments.  It was quite a big deal, but it was doable. 

And then, five days before, I was not given the time off.

And I was left with the choice of going, or not.

I struggled with this for days.  So much so that I flaired my diverticulitis and had to switch to a nearly all liquid diet for 3 days.  I considered not going at all, which the husband wanted no part of.  Regardless, this ship was sailing, and in the end I really wanted to be on it. 

So I went.  We took 2 cars.  Youngest rode with me down and we talked the whole way. Real, articulated words.  The two hours flew by.  I drove back just after midnight with BBoy and Oldest in tow.  Oldest just wanted to sleep in his own bed and I think BBoy just wanted to be home as well. Husband and Youngest stayed the night, a smart choice on their part since the husband had been up for 22 hours, and Youngest knew there was no breakfast food at home. They arrived home, after gorging themselves on the casino's buffet, around one that afternoon. As for me, I had about 3 hours of sleep before heading back to work all day, in oppressive weather, worsened by the easy-bake-oven of a mail truck I deliver out of for 5 hours a day.

It was less than awesome.

But as I think back, looking down the row of them all singing together, containing themselves just short of dancing in the seats, it was worth strapping myself to the sail of this family's ship, regardless of where we we go, or how rough the seas may be when I get home.